amazing

it's amazing how easy people gives up on things.

it's interesting how things changed over night.

it's sad when love's gone.

it's ridiculous when someone doesn't want to lose face.

it's been a full on experience.

it's been nice and warm.

it was something.

it was special.

but was it real?

was it true?

i don't think there is an answer to that.

one thing i know...

i was in love with you.

i wanted to be with you.

you were in my mind.

you were in my heart.

you were all i wanted.

you were someone i was planning to wake up to.

you were somebody i wanted to learn things together.

you were special.

you were different.

but i guess that's not enough.

blogging is great in a way.. it's a good release. it makes you wondering whether the person you are writing about would ever get to read it.

life is complicated. it fucks your head up at time. i wonder if you should think with your brain or your heart. i always follow my heart. i fell in love with a man, a man who is as fucked up as me.

maybe i was wrong, maybe i was right..

anyway... i just have to keep thinking and dreaming.. and will always be wondering what it would be like to be with YOU!.