new year

now its 2008, everything has ended, we don't even talk anymore. it is my decision. now he has a new guy, someone who he is in love with. im happy for him..

but it hurts..

very much...

so much..

i wish i could just stop thinking about him and pretend that he doesn't exist in this world. but i still miss his smell, i still miss being in his arms. why why why.

he was treating me like shit, he didn't care, he didn't love me.. HE STOPPED LOVING ME!.

oh well, what can you do, i just would like this feeling to pass and go away.. it is hard having him in my thought, i feel sad, i feel angry, i feel upset, i feel hurt.

tomorrow is just another day, please don't come into my head, please let me forget about you, please let me stop loving you.. i beg.

i will be better tomorrow.