feeling

i miss you, i really would love to see you and talk to you. but somehow i dont think it's such a good idea. things have changed, things have been strange since last night. it hurts.

i am so much in love with you. it's scary. i would love to be able to hold you, kiss you, and wake up next to you every morning.

you are such an amazing person. one thing that i don't quite understand is why you need to keep meeting up with new people. maybe i'm not good enough so you need to keep your options open.

i think it's a good idea to stop seeing each other for a month, it will prove that we are actually in love with each other. i still would love to be with you.... you make me smile, you make me happy.

i love with feeling of holding each other's hands walking around town. i love meeting you on the bridge, i love when you carry me on your back, i love when you kiss me in public, i really love you.

i hope you get to read this blog.

i xxxx you james.

first sight

It's like seeing someone for the first time, and you look at each other for a few seconds, and there's this kind of recognition like you both know something. Next moment the person's gone, and it's too late to do anything about it. and you wonder what would happen if you had enough courage to go and say "hi", what would happen if that person was the love of your life!!!

Dream for an Insomniac

- Anything less than mad, passionate, extraordinary love is a waste of your time.

- Choices are like connecting highways. They all take you to the same place. Some just take longer to get there.

- There are too many mediocre things in life to deal with and love shouldn't be one of them.

- I am going to circumnavigate his soul until he is surrounded on all sides by my love.

- Life can only be understood backwards.

12:46am

can't sleep, thinking about you. wishing you were here holding me.

12:47am, still thinking about you, still wishing that you were here kissing me.

12:48am, wishing you were here even more, wishing you were smiling at me and telling me you love me.

someone is crazy about you, James Cattell.

xxx

yesterday, today, tomorrow

yesterday, i loved you. today, i love you. tomorrow, i will love you. xx